On Friday, I got a call from Samantha. “I’m feeling spontaneous this morning. Let’s go to Nashville tonight and see Joyce Meyer and Hillsong United. How long will it take for you to get ready?” I finished up some work, packed and hit the road.
Upon arrival, two other women from our church were there saving seats, how cool.
It was such a timely trip. The message was briliant, about selfishness and having grace towards others. But even better was the worship. I could have spent hours basking in that presence.
For me, I walked away with the sense that I must “die to my reputation”. My life used to be about approval… my parents, coaches, teachers, etc. After this year, I found new validation within.
Now, however, I’ve realized that some, whether intended our not, don’t celebrate your victories or success. In fact, some people are threatened by it. They say cruel things, gossip lies and ultimately seek your demise… That’s just sad.
However, I’ve realized that my personality must be tempered in specific situations, not stifled, but tempered. Regardless, when I walk into a room, I change the temperature and dynamics…. my gregariousness, joy and people loving ways seem to be contagious to those around. This is an amazing opportunity to influence people with the same quality of love God has placed in me. I can’t help it, the stuff just bubbles out.
It’s value and love for people that opens doors to their hearts… even those that can do you no favors, can give you no gain or have nothing of interest to offer you…. you simply love them because its what you are, love.
True freedom is when you no longer have to impress anyone.
I love it.
